by lani

… year since we learned that sky gabriel had died.

at 9:30pm i texted my midwife; i hadn’t felt any movement all day. she told us to meet her at the birth center. we were shaking and cold and nervous, but didn’t really believe that anything could be wrong. that’s the sort of thing that happens to other people. 1 in 100 other people’s babies die, but that number was too small to hold my family.

the shock and sadness on my midwife’s face. she knew. and so did i. but we refused to believe it until the obstetrician at emanuel hospital said, “i’m sorry; your baby has died,” just before midnight on december 13, 2011.